I WILL BE ON HIATUS. BUSY WITH SOMEONE AND SOMETHING.

Some note for my dearest friend aie:
Smoking Drinking are some things u picked up…
Such bad habits may be very difficult and most impossible to change.
But here are some things in life u might want to get it stuck in ur head and amend ur mindset.

Do you want it to persist into your adulthood and affect your professional life in the future?
Do not let negative peer pressure or thoughts haunt you.
Do not let your pessimistic mindset cloud your judgement

Willpower , confidence and optimism are the key to your new beginning.
I hope you wont embark your life with the word‘ BAD ‘ in your life again.

Assurance of how you gonna succeed is with the notes in your brain tht we , being your friend, and I being your fren, are watching you. And giving our support from behind. No matter how down u fall, its not a bad fall.
And ‘ bad ‘ shudnt exist in your life
Hopefully u get wht I mean aie
I am trying to tell you, don’t believe tht u cant make changes and don’t keep saying you are bad,
Theres worser people than you. Than us.

Much love , abin

woke up and get scolding from mum.
went to school.
alot of bad luck happening around me,
1 - i got 4 chances to scoare a goal for soccer.
2 - i accidentally hit matthew head with a metal wokpiece and bleed.
3 - a metal rod falls to my toe.
4 - i scratch my hand agaisnt the machine corner.

went home and bath then play ps3.
online chat, facebook and wasit for someone to online.
mum reach home and scold me like fuck.
then she online, tegur me and chat, webcam and call.
get well soon dear. miimye and awie called and cant conference. mcm sial.

a another chance?

today, stayed home.
get scolding from family.
they cant see me resting is it?
im tired from everything.

first thing first.
the GST fucking rising to 8%.
from 3% to 4% to 7% to 8%.
all governments want from us is money.
fucking money.
if our paid is rising up i dont mind.
but all this shit is to over for us.
how about the poor people?
the one who collect cans and newspaper?
where will they be living if they got no money to pay for the house?
hope they will be riot will all of you.
if police catch me up, i dont fucking care.
im fuck up with life.

i just go home from zeek out.

last night we drank barcardi, chivas, red vodka and glens.
6 people 4 bottle.
i vomitted the second cup,
i know i kental. im just stress about people out there.
after vomitting i drank more than 10 cups.
dying, reach zeek out and sleep.
woke up and ate. then talk and lepak.
then when home.
reach home around 5+pm.
bath and shit,
watch television and play ps3.
just online and blog.

before the drinking me and parker went to zirca for the job interview.
im fucking nervous and kept thinking of other stuff.

im stupid for letting go of someone just to go to another.

a note for myself - to those who gave up on love, i say 'trust life a little bit' - maya angelau

Get up and go, Take a chance and be strong or you could spend your whole life holdong it. - unknown

life is too short to stress yourself with people who dont issue in your life. - unknown

i didnt went to school today.
last night wasnt a good night.
she didnt call me.
i know you are sad about all this thing happening.
you have to stay strong.
today, woke up from sleep and message her.
then online and chat.
facebook and stuff.
she goes out and im all alone in msn.
offline and play ps3.
listened to electro.
online and blog.
waiting for B. =D

Just reach home from sheesha and drinking.
im missing someone currently and i want to school.

woke up at 2 just now.
online and chat with silvia.
met her at bukit batok and went together to town,
she went to dhoby and me to town.
suppose to meet idris,he is like2 hour late?
met zeek and shab. then mimi join.
split with zeek and shab and went to awie workplace.
then went to smoke and UOB.
met them and lepak2.
talk about countdown and stuff.
then parker went thonning at zeek out.
mimiawie went home.
ielah asked me if i want to follow her go sheesha or not.
i just follow uh with shee.
went sheesha-ing and drink tequila.
then sleep there and join ielah sis friends.
take cab went home .

thanks shee, ielah and hidayah for the treat.

Life, theres alot of thing to learn, feels, taste, smell and more.


Im still strong down here.


no hurts, no negative feelings.


so far my 2010 is great,


new friends, new experience, new life.


i quitted drinking since new year.


i went to school everyday(except thursday)


hope to find a new love partner.


swarming her with love and care.


its up to her to loves me or not.


im just not as gentlemen as guys out there.


i as a guy i admit that most of the guy are the same.


all they want is sex, making out, one night stand.


yeah, all i want is to meet her family and they meet my family.


living together, understanding each other character.


i need to work to bear with my and her family.


i want a love partner who is matured enough to understand my feelings.


i should understand her too.


yeah, hope i can find that someone.





all depends on gods hand.

woke up at 5.45 and went to bath.
call that someone to wake her up.
went to school.
last minute plan, school trip to Republic Poly.
i wasted my money toping up my ezlink.
then walk around and lepak2.
went back to school.
just to meet someone. yeah.
lepak with her awhile and went home.
went out at 4.15.
met awie and mimi, then met miimye,
payung and met farhana,
fetch yuyul at raffles.
came back and they were waiting for us,
miimye cut the cake and ate, bought glen vodka.
i didnt fucking drink and lepak2 then went home.

firast thing i wanna say happy birthday to miimye and nurul quraishani.
may god bless both of you.
just now went to parker place and smoke, play guitar and lepak.
went cigg searching.
macam no life gitu.
then went home and online.
chat3 and facebook.
hmm, im feeling sleepy now. im off now.

school<3

i didnt go to school today, i sleep at 7 am.
woke up by mum's call, saying that the cabinet has come.
read message. same thing happen.
that girl didnt went to school.
lazy and no friends. =.=''
open door and let them in.
built the cabinet and sign the paper.
idris message, he wants cigg, so im going out later on to meet him.
mye message. tomorrow meet her.
hmm, i will meet you up k.
kakak mye esok 18 sey. woooo.
hmm, im going out now.

Woke up at 6.30 and met akir at sembawang mrt.
went to school together. smoke then go eat.
saw that girl again. its a hat trick today.
then lepak with classmates.
class and study, then went to cafe 2.
lepak2, waiting for classmates to finish eating.
then went to stadium and lepak.
took resident evil 5 PS3 from awie and went to class.
study and went home.
dig ear, play resident evil.
ear bleeds. hearing lost on the right about 60%.
sleep, woke up and call that girl.
talk about school and friends.

I know you down right now.
We live once for a lifetime.
Be happy. Take this as a life experience k candygirl?:)
Hugs.

This is why i love 2010. Thanks you all.

Good night, meet you all when im not tired k.

didnt sleep again and went to school with akir.
then bought cigg and met father.
went to school and take certificate and walk down.
and went to hougang. fetch miimye to go woodlands.
mye topup my ezlink for me.
met yuyul at her block, saw her alot of times and now got to talk with her.
woodlands, mye treat me mcchicken meal.
then met liya, syafiq and thier friend.
may tak turun. sakit.
pfft. i dont think she is sick.
teman mye beli webcam.
then went to civic and lepak. took alot of pic.
waiting for yuyul to upload.
lepak2. then went home.

thanks mye for the treat.
sorry if i didnt talk much. im tired. <3

I didnt sleep before going to school.
at 6am i went bathing and dig ear.
my ear have something inside since i move to sembawang.
then i hit the thing and it start bleeding.
then wash my ears and went to 420.
met lyana and we split up and i went to school.
first thing in my mind is cigg.
so bought cigg at simei and wait for hisbullah at mrt.
then walk to school, went in to class and teacher went out.
went to eat and see all the new kids.
alot of mats and minahs.
hmm. went home at 2 and sleep.

Each and everyday is a totally different journey experience to go thru no matter what.Take it as a lesson to learn frm the failure and shits tat happened.it's no use blaming nor cursing on it. it's all fate that had to happen.

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on the phone with miimye and awie.
slept at 5am.
woke up at 4 by the television noise.
went to bath and mop the floor.
later im going to orchard meet awie and miimye.
before that meet may and syafiq just to take miimye cable.
then go to miimye workplace. =]

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met parker at clementi, bought king robert's scotch.
then went to harbourfront and met mus, hadi, wai kit and i forget his name.
met cika awhhile and take the ray ban shades, thanks cika!
went in and met shab and zeek at pahlawan tower.
around 11, open bombay sapphire and drink.
3 cups and fetch miimye, tira and farhana nurain.
then awie and mimi came.
wooo. alot of people sia.
they bought chivas with them.
open chivas, drink3.
took pic(will upload by miimye later)
then went to tanjong and party la sial.
join, andy, lisa, fitri, sandra and more.
wooooooooooooooooooo! lagu stim sia.
then i dance and rave.
made alot of friends.
then went back to tower and miimye, tira, farhana nurain were gone.
sedih sia. gahh. but nevermind, there alot of days in the future.
then drink king robet's scotch.
minum3, mabuk rabak la sia.
went to tanjung back.
dance3, grind with a short girl.
woooooo. we are dangerous man. haha.
saw mimi and awie,
they dance like wtf. orang tengah battle main masok tengah je.
then sit aside. smoke.
then on the way back i saw something on the tree.
a long hair with body, parker and mimi saw too.
that was the first time i saw a thing i wasnt to be see.
macam sial la.
chol rabak beb.
then went to toilet and wash face.
its still there.
blah3. walk to tower
on the phone with cika.
talk with awie and mimi.
layan kan zeek, that cika kept calling. =.=''
parker, waikit and mus was sleeping.
zeek walk about. gi kedai la, tu la.
then all of us went home.
i had never been so mabuk before.

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Muhammad Rifa'ie. we live once in a lifetime. so must enjoy, ϟiHeartelectromusicϟ