Tell me, why am i the brightest amongst the colour?

2010-05-12T05:46:00.000-07:00

Im going to wait for you no matter what.

nurhazirah

2010-05-09T00:42:00.000-07:00

i need to talk to you nurhazirah bte rahmat.
i kinda feel hurt knowing you loves someone.
i know im in relationship but that wasnt true.
i just want to ignore someone in my facebook and my school.
they have been obsessed with me.
i dont know what to say but im sad.
im crying, im hurt, im sad.
why am i not being a good date for you.
i know i got alot of girl friends out there.
i dont want to hurt you.
seriously i dont.
imsorry if i hurt you.

i dont know what to type.
just let me be alone.
i love you nurhazirah.

2010-04-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

i know you keep reading my blog.
why dont you just online.
i miss you.
i wanna hear you.
i wanna feel you.

kambing.

2010-04-27T08:08:00.000-07:00

today i woke up at9.
school starts at 8.
i still can online and chat in the morning.
bathed, siap and went to school.
met bob and the rest.
lepak2. after lunch go class.
turning. the 3rd piece of work.
ended at 5. went home and online.

mana kambing?

2010-04-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

went to school as usual.
met bob at busstop. smoke.
ate at cafe 2.
went to class. then went to tamp.
makan and went to school.
lifeskill and went lepak.
makan again. thanks bob for the treat.
reach home at 8 and online.

2010-04-25T06:44:00.000-07:00

went to lan for 1 hour yesterday.
played warcraft with idris and his brother.
went to cineleisure. met zeek.
went to zeek house and lepak.
watched islam vs christian at youtube.
then went to sleep.
woke up and play game.
eat and facebook.
went home and bath. done.
im tired.

where are you girl? i have been waiting for your call. its difficult for us to contact. :(

2010-04-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

Life is so boring.
currently no mood.
started at yishun,
thats why i reach home early.
hungry. no mood.
i dont want to meet girl, girls, woman, women, lady or whatsoever.
easy life ah. me and the boy, boys, men, man, guy.
done with it.

i just want your careness towards me back, nurhazirah.

schooling.

2010-04-22T23:50:00.000-07:00

ASH STYMEST.

Have been busy schooling.
someone have been reading my blog
and where is she?
the girl who open her smiley piercing.
let me type about what happen in school.
2 girls have been so obsessed with me that i hate them.
one of them message me and wanted to meet.
i was in class.
i found from my friend she said she miss me.
wtf man, we never had a talk in school.
the other one i dont know who the fuck is her
and she has been talking about me with the other one.
i acted that i got a girlfriend in facebook and in school which is not.
today im just chilling around in my house.
no school because of CIP at pasir ris and im not chosen.
later maybe going to simei to meet jannah.
if not im going to yishun to meet fir.
yeah. sorry for not blogging this few days.
busy with school, sorry yaw.

2010-04-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

reach home at 9am.
last night went to city hall and town.
lepak with idris workmates.
they are fun.
walk around. watch jackass 2.5 at office.
lepak. pool. 1 jug.
thailand girls. yum2 (Y).
sleep for 3 hours and went home.
facebook and chat with sabu.
i kinda miss her.
she is in nepal now.
i hope she is alright.
:)

2010-04-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

went school with shani.
again. she bullied me.
study and went home.
met erin at sembawang around 6.
went to town and shop.
went to teck whye and eat macspicy with erin.
saw nadya and rawr.
lepak and they study.
went home and online.
thanks erin buncit.

shop

2010-04-14T09:25:00.001-07:00

went school with shani.
studied.
went to meet shiq with shani.
went home and bathe.
zhy call.
meet her and follow her to vivo to take her paid.
went to orchard and bought a jacket and a bag.
treat her a double cheese burger meal.
send her home and went home.

thanks zhy, you made my day.
love you alot. <3

2010-04-13T12:27:00.001-07:00

after 3day.
i finaaly get to sleep.
like seriously fucking sleep.
from 4am to 5pm. that was awesome.
i just found out on that is a wireless around my house.
the best connection is a my bed. awesome. :D.

2010-04-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i have been trying to post this picture for 23 times.
This is nurhazirah bte rahmat.
She is the first girl i have truely fallen in love since im single.
she taught me how to love.
thanks to her i have lost my mojo of *something*
somehow we are getting apart.
i dont know for what reason.

i miss your voice.
i miss your burning touch to my skins.
i miss you calling me kambing.
i miss being shy meeting you and your friend.
i miss hugging you.
i miss you smile.
i miss you girl.

you soothes my heart.
trying to change me by asking me not to drink.
but still. last thursday what happen?
i dont want to know.
try your best to make yourself free by this wednesday ok.

i need to meet you like seriously.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

school

2010-04-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

Went to school like usual.
came in class and get fucked up like fuck.
cabut and met fairuz, awie, mahyudin and more.
lepak til 2.30 and went in class.
watch movie and went home. done.

spammer

2010-04-11T11:22:00.000-07:00

you call me faggot?
meet me and say it to my face.
internet such for small kids to insult people.
seriously uh.
want you want from me actually?
i can give you my number and meet me up if you dare insult me in the fucking face.

another spammer:
if my blog is merepek.
who fucking fuckfuck ask you to read.
if you come back and read.
its easy.
you just fucking hate me.
its not about the blog.
one more thing.
why you coming back for more?

2010-04-11T11:08:00.000-07:00

currently its 2am and im not sleeping.
i woke up and didnt know what to do.
read my message and went down. 15 min walking here and there just to search for wireless.
im having the worst internet here.
out of 5 bar, the internet gave me just one bar.
so i use this oppurtunity to blog and msn.
yeah. been busy this few days.
on on friday i was at pasir ris thonning.
on saturday i was thonning too.
but me and friends was at lan shop.
playing battlefield 2.
16 people playing battlefield was great.
thank to you all i had fun.
i reach home and bath then straight away go to woodland to take my cheque.
went to tekka with mum and dad.
ate and went home.
help mum with her chores.
sleep at 8pm when i wanted to watch the movie hairspray.
woke up and done.

thanks shani and shiq for blogging for me.
im just being busy this few days.
i hope i will get to see shani at school today,
love shani and shiq.
muacksmuacks.

2010-04-09T11:08:00.000-07:00

this is real, this is me, this is us.
oh hello silent readers, im aie's friend.
aie is asking for a help to update something. heck. ftw. im lost for words, serious2.lets talk about this picture. okay, recently shiq and me cam-whored. and we got this love symbol for aie.
there you go aie, lucky you.its nice isnt it? no? fine. i will emo. okay, i dont want to burden aie's blog like my blog . i loved typing long2 stories. i will prevent myself from killing this blog because of my niggas! current situation:
aie is away right now. tonn-ing~ he wont be online.neither does he have the time to update blog. i asked him to update tomorrow , he sae: i need to blog. here we are. and i am sure aie is having a relax-ing time right now. right aie? i dont know wht else he had done yesterdae. kae best. im done.come back soon aie.

aie.aie.aie.aie.aie.aie
yours truly
shiq and shani

old but me.

2010-04-08T09:47:00.000-07:00

good boy

2010-04-08T08:23:00.000-07:00

woke and play game.
message shiq and shani.
(both not online now) grrrr.
im going to bite them.
bored and clean the house.
sister reach home.
game cigg game cigg game cigg.
eat and go mac treat my sis.
reach home eat and online.

something wasnt right

2010-04-07T11:19:00.000-07:00

woke by by a call. sitting up right.
talking, went to bath and went out to town.
play lan for idk how many hour.
went window shopping at heeren.
saw this jacket cost 109 bucks.
quiet cheap. going to buy it soon.
like serious shit.
met ielah and lepak then went home.
met nura and lepak at batu cave.
went home and going to bath and feel the insect crawling at my neck.
bath and on laptop.
insect at hand
2 times.
went down and insect at neck.
having goosebump right now.

gahh. hope it didnt follow me home again.

today.

2010-04-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

Today i rot in hell.

sick

2010-04-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

woke from a call.
wanting me to help him to do office work.
message shani and shiq.
its raining and i have to wait.
so in the meanwhile i play DOTA.
yeah. its drizzling and i walk to MRT station.
in the train mum call.
saying my sister lost her keys.
scolding me and stuff.
gahh. stress.
stop at bishan and went home.
DOTA and eat.
sister reach home muka happily and i get the scolding. FML.
lol. play GTA and went down for internet.
blog and chat. bye.

somebody call 995

2010-04-04T08:47:00.001-07:00

woke at 5.
everybody is home.
sister just came back from KL.
she bought new ray ban shades. pffft.
bath and my saw smoke ffrom another block.
dad call the firefighter.
in 5 minute they came.
rubbish chute fire.
coolio. spray fire from the fire engine.
fire was not so big.
my dad explain about firefighting and stuff.
blahblahblah. 10 mintue later fire gone.
watch movie and rot at home.

hi.

2010-04-02T16:47:00.001-07:00

Hi ielah here.

This aie very lazy to update his blog.

So im being a very nice person to blog for him.:)

So hello!Its Saturday morning!

Aie and some others are over at my house.

We movie marathon-ed since yesterday night.

Watched all horror movies but aie didn't watched.

He was busy playing with my com and syok sendiri.

Alright so i guess they are going home today.

Okay that's all.

Ok. aie here. ielah need to make a call.

i have been busy no time to blog and my internet got terminated.

im missing someone right now. bye. <3<3

2010-03-16T09:42:00.000-07:00

Myrrmyrr Sepetzsx here , again (:

I forgot to tell him that , I think after 3months of knowing you , you've been sucha nice guy .

You're caring and always giving in . Maybe I've not known you long enough to know th " other " side of you but really , I feel that only bitches would leave you . Because they don't know well enough how to appreciate you .

ohh , still sayang kau manymany and hope you won't be mad at me for 'hacking' into your acc (:

I couldnt remember your password dude . This is pure luck (:

Once again , sayang kau manymany . I miss taking buses and trains with you , and your long midnight calls .

but most of all , i think i might have missed you , just a little <3

2010-03-07T07:34:00.000-08:00

Myrrmyrr Sepetxsz here (:

( only because A'ie calls me that ^^ )

His blog is dead , and he didn't even link me ?! Wtf . Sadded !

anyway , just dropping by to tell him that I really miss him .

Thanks so much for sending me home th other day dude (:

In a few days time we'll both be 17 , yeyy ~!

Oh , and for my birthday , I want super high heels so that I can match up with you, freaking tall ass .

ohh , love ya <3

ON HIATUS

2010-01-25T05:12:00.000-08:00

I WILL BE ON HIATUS. BUSY WITH SOMEONE AND SOMETHING.

again?

2010-01-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

Some note for my dearest friend aie:
Smoking Drinking are some things u picked up…
Such bad habits may be very difficult and most impossible to change.
But here are some things in life u might want to get it stuck in ur head and amend ur mindset.

Do you want it to persist into your adulthood and affect your professional life in the future?
Do not let negative peer pressure or thoughts haunt you.
Do not let your pessimistic mindset cloud your judgement

Willpower , confidence and optimism are the key to your new beginning.
I hope you wont embark your life with the word‘ BAD ‘ in your life again.

Assurance of how you gonna succeed is with the notes in your brain tht we , being your friend, and I being your fren, are watching you. And giving our support from behind. No matter how down u fall, its not a bad fall.
And ‘ bad ‘ shudnt exist in your life
Hopefully u get wht I mean aie
I am trying to tell you, don’t believe tht u cant make changes and don’t keep saying you are bad,
Theres worser people than you. Than us.

Much love , abin

a another chance

2010-01-19T06:35:00.000-08:00

woke up and get scolding from mum.
went to school.
alot of bad luck happening around me,
1 - i got 4 chances to scoare a goal for soccer.
2 - i accidentally hit matthew head with a metal wokpiece and bleed.
3 - a metal rod falls to my toe.
4 - i scratch my hand agaisnt the machine corner.

went home and bath then play ps3.
online chat, facebook and wasit for someone to online.
mum reach home and scold me like fuck.
then she online, tegur me and chat, webcam and call.
get well soon dear. miimye and awie called and cant conference. mcm sial.

a another chance?

tired

2010-01-18T07:08:00.000-08:00

went to school.
study about the project and stuff.
went home with cousin,
talks about my old home folks.
miss them. they getting worst.
drink drug cigg tattoo.
haiya, what to do?
inside bus nothing to do and seeing our pic.
hais. i miss you.
reach home and sleep,
woke up by my mum voice.
noisy like fuck.
then makan mac nye makanan.
i dont know i dont care.
then mum memekak, cuci pinggan, cuci kuali.
tidur cepat. wtf sia. its getting ridiculous everyday.

many people are more worst than us, chill out aie.

memory

2010-01-17T02:56:00.000-08:00

today, stayed home.
get scolding from family.
they cant see me resting is it?
im tired from everything.

first thing first.
the GST fucking rising to 8%.
from 3% to 4% to 7% to 8%.
all governments want from us is money.
fucking money.
if our paid is rising up i dont mind.
but all this shit is to over for us.
how about the poor people?
the one who collect cans and newspaper?
where will they be living if they got no money to pay for the house?
hope they will be riot will all of you.
if police catch me up, i dont fucking care.
im fuck up with life.

2010 stress

2010-01-16T07:17:00.000-08:00

i just go home from zeek out.

last night we drank barcardi, chivas, red vodka and glens.
6 people 4 bottle.
i vomitted the second cup,
i know i kental. im just stress about people out there.
after vomitting i drank more than 10 cups.
dying, reach zeek out and sleep.
woke up and ate. then talk and lepak.
then when home.
reach home around 5+pm.
bath and shit,
watch television and play ps3.
just online and blog.

before the drinking me and parker went to zirca for the job interview.
im fucking nervous and kept thinking of other stuff.

im stupid for letting go of someone just to go to another.

2010-01-14T07:09:00.000-08:00

a note for myself - to those who gave up on love, i say 'trust life a little bit' - maya angelau

2010-01-14T07:05:00.000-08:00

Get up and go, Take a chance and be strong or you could spend your whole life holdong it. - unknown

2010-01-14T07:00:00.001-08:00

life is too short to stress yourself with people who dont issue in your life. - unknown

home

2010-01-14T06:17:00.000-08:00

i didnt went to school today.
last night wasnt a good night.
she didnt call me.
i know you are sad about all this thing happening.
you have to stay strong.
today, woke up from sleep and message her.
then online and chat.
facebook and stuff.
she goes out and im all alone in msn.
offline and play ps3.
listened to electro.
online and blog.
waiting for B. =D

2010-01-13T07:21:00.000-08:00

alot of things happen in 2 days.

first thing.

i didnt online for 2 days and check my blog

and someone spam.

i dont care uh. but people using my name and spam my ex blog.

why do people do this sia? enjoy pe?

and and yar, so what if my post MACAM PAHAM.

first thing first uh.

aku tak menyusahkan hidup kau atau siapa-siapa.

we can just meet up and talk what.

today.

first thing.

buy cigg and almost get caught by police.

i smoked infront of them and run away. baik.

then went school and get scolded then break.

macam cibai.

then went in class and study Electro-hydraulics practical.

easy and fun learning.

went to causeway.

suppose to meet B.

but then i dont what happen uh.

then went home and sleep.

woke up, online and webcam with B

giving up

2010-01-11T21:46:00.000-08:00

im giving up on love.
no use falling in love.
im not the old me who got the confidence in myself.
asking a girl out, for a date, kneeling down just for her.
im not that type anymore.
i realised im a jerk all this while.
girls, just put aside.
all i want for now is happiness and to get my ITE certificate.
i said to B, everyday is a new life experience.
today i learn to give up and to stop being a high hopers.
i feel stupid.
i dont mind cause theres alot of days in the future and we can enjoy it.

stop being a high hopers aie.

bedrock

2010-01-10T09:52:00.000-08:00

i keep listening to bedrock from young money.
im addicted to that song.
thanks to someone la ehk.
i just finish cutting my hair.
i rot at home today.
webcam with siti and B.
i love making them laugh.
waiting for someone to online since 6.45 til 12.
yeah. she did online.
hmm. i miss you girl.
im sleepy but waiting for her to chat with me.

school at 10.

thanks.

2010-01-09T14:01:00.000-08:00

Just reach home from sheesha and drinking.
im missing someone currently and i want to school.

woke up at 2 just now.
online and chat with silvia.
met her at bukit batok and went together to town,
she went to dhoby and me to town.
suppose to meet idris,he is like2 hour late?
met zeek and shab. then mimi join.
split with zeek and shab and went to awie workplace.
then went to smoke and UOB.
met them and lepak2.
talk about countdown and stuff.
then parker went thonning at zeek out.
mimiawie went home.
ielah asked me if i want to follow her go sheesha or not.
i just follow uh with shee.
went sheesha-ing and drink tequila.
then sleep there and join ielah sis friends.
take cab went home .

thanks shee, ielah and hidayah for the treat.

2010-01-08T23:08:00.000-08:00

Life, theres alot of thing to learn, feels, taste, smell and more.

Im still strong down here.

no hurts, no negative feelings.

so far my 2010 is great,

new friends, new experience, new life.

i quitted drinking since new year.

i went to school everyday(except thursday)

hope to find a new love partner.

swarming her with love and care.

its up to her to loves me or not.

im just not as gentlemen as guys out there.

i as a guy i admit that most of the guy are the same.

all they want is sex, making out, one night stand.

yeah, all i want is to meet her family and they meet my family.

living together, understanding each other character.

i need to work to bear with my and her family.

i want a love partner who is matured enough to understand my feelings.

i should understand her too.

yeah, hope i can find that someone.

all depends on gods hand.

meet you again

2010-01-08T00:07:00.000-08:00

woke up at 5.45 and went to bath.
call that someone to wake her up.
went to school.
last minute plan, school trip to Republic Poly.
i wasted my money toping up my ezlink.
then walk around and lepak2.
went back to school.
just to meet someone. yeah.
lepak with her awhile and went home.
went out at 4.15.
met awie and mimi, then met miimye,
payung and met farhana,
fetch yuyul at raffles.
came back and they were waiting for us,
miimye cut the cake and ate, bought glen vodka.
i didnt fucking drink and lepak2 then went home.

sleepy

2010-01-07T09:51:00.000-08:00

firast thing i wanna say happy birthday to miimye and nurul quraishani.
may god bless both of you.
just now went to parker place and smoke, play guitar and lepak.
went cigg searching.
macam no life gitu.
then went home and online.
chat3 and facebook.
hmm, im feeling sleepy now. im off now.

school<3

no school

2010-01-06T22:11:00.000-08:00

i didnt go to school today, i sleep at 7 am.
woke up by mum's call, saying that the cabinet has come.
read message. same thing happen.
that girl didnt went to school.
lazy and no friends. =.=''
open door and let them in.
built the cabinet and sign the paper.
idris message, he wants cigg, so im going out later on to meet him.
mye message. tomorrow meet her.
hmm, i will meet you up k.
kakak mye esok 18 sey. woooo.
hmm, im going out now.

third day of school. (ayusleeping?)

2010-01-06T06:13:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 6.30 and met akir at sembawang mrt.
went to school together. smoke then go eat.
saw that girl again. its a hat trick today.
then lepak with classmates.
class and study, then went to cafe 2.
lepak2, waiting for classmates to finish eating.
then went to stadium and lepak.
took resident evil 5 PS3 from awie and went to class.
study and went home.
dig ear, play resident evil.
ear bleeds. hearing lost on the right about 60%.
sleep, woke up and call that girl.
talk about school and friends.

I know you down right now.
We live once for a lifetime.
Be happy. Take this as a life experience k candygirl?:)
Hugs.

5 jan 2010.

2010-01-05T06:16:00.000-08:00

This is why i love 2010. Thanks you all.

Good night, meet you all when im not tired k.

second day of school

2010-01-05T04:34:00.000-08:00

didnt sleep again and went to school with akir.
then bought cigg and met father.
went to school and take certificate and walk down.
and went to hougang. fetch miimye to go woodlands.
mye topup my ezlink for me.
met yuyul at her block, saw her alot of times and now got to talk with her.
woodlands, mye treat me mcchicken meal.
then met liya, syafiq and thier friend.
may tak turun. sakit.
pfft. i dont think she is sick.
teman mye beli webcam.
then went to civic and lepak. took alot of pic.
waiting for yuyul to upload.
lepak2. then went home.

thanks mye for the treat.
sorry if i didnt talk much. im tired. <3

first day of school

2010-01-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

I didnt sleep before going to school.
at 6am i went bathing and dig ear.
my ear have something inside since i move to sembawang.
then i hit the thing and it start bleeding.
then wash my ears and went to 420.
met lyana and we split up and i went to school.
first thing in my mind is cigg.
so bought cigg at simei and wait for hisbullah at mrt.
then walk to school, went in to class and teacher went out.
went to eat and see all the new kids.
alot of mats and minahs.
hmm. went home at 2 and sleep.

stolen from someone.

2010-01-03T13:04:00.000-08:00

Each and everyday is a totally different journey experience to go thru no matter what.Take it as a lesson to learn frm the failure and shits tat happened.it's no use blaming nor cursing on it. it's all fate that had to happen.

2010-01-03T12:25:00.000-08:00

4

2010-01-03T00:42:00.000-08:00

on the phone with miimye and awie.
slept at 5am.
woke up at 4 by the television noise.
went to bath and mop the floor.
later im going to orchard meet awie and miimye.
before that meet may and syafiq just to take miimye cable.
then go to miimye workplace. =]

countdown

2010-01-01T01:37:00.000-08:00

met parker at clementi, bought king robert's scotch.
then went to harbourfront and met mus, hadi, wai kit and i forget his name.
met cika awhhile and take the ray ban shades, thanks cika!
went in and met shab and zeek at pahlawan tower.
around 11, open bombay sapphire and drink.
3 cups and fetch miimye, tira and farhana nurain.
then awie and mimi came.
wooo. alot of people sia.
they bought chivas with them.
open chivas, drink3.
took pic(will upload by miimye later)
then went to tanjong and party la sial.
join, andy, lisa, fitri, sandra and more.
wooooooooooooooooooo! lagu stim sia.
then i dance and rave.
made alot of friends.
then went back to tower and miimye, tira, farhana nurain were gone.
sedih sia. gahh. but nevermind, there alot of days in the future.
then drink king robet's scotch.
minum3, mabuk rabak la sia.
went to tanjung back.
dance3, grind with a short girl.
woooooo. we are dangerous man. haha.
saw mimi and awie,
they dance like wtf. orang tengah battle main masok tengah je.
then sit aside. smoke.
then on the way back i saw something on the tree.
a long hair with body, parker and mimi saw too.
that was the first time i saw a thing i wasnt to be see.
macam sial la.
chol rabak beb.
then went to toilet and wash face.
its still there.
blah3. walk to tower
on the phone with cika.
talk with awie and mimi.
layan kan zeek, that cika kept calling. =.=''
parker, waikit and mus was sleeping.
zeek walk about. gi kedai la, tu la.
then all of us went home.
i had never been so mabuk before.

zeekout

2009-12-29T20:02:00.000-08:00

Woke up from their noises.
sleepy, just now at 5 had a conference with shiq and friends.
blah3 and sleep. haha.
am at zeek house.
with idris and his cousin.
maybe going home at 2 plus.
i will not be blogging til im home from countdown.
so yeah.
happy new year guys. :)

home

2009-12-29T01:53:00.000-08:00

Have been staying home for 4 days.
sis went to johor with dad.
mum and step dad working.
im all alone.
rotting.
waiting for ezzrani to come back.
i want cigg la belo.
haiya. nak beli pon susah tau.
i want sweets. to keep me active.
i got the money but lazy to go shop.
and the shop is beside my block only.
lol. nevermind then.
:)

H, ily

2009-12-27T03:43:00.000-08:00

This is H. My old lost friend.
I miss you so much boncit.
Last i saw you was at lifes a beach.
We contacted around june 2008 to january 2009.
Thats what i tried to remember.

PAST.
On the phone.
Sharing happiness.
The birthday present.
Plan for meeting after school but it didnt happen.

But now? yeah i know i have change.
Smoking, Drinking and stuff.
Your words were strong enough to changed me.
But you must try to keep doing that.
I need you somehow.
I waited for you to tegur me at 12am.
But now its 4.22am in the morning.
Hmm. nevermind then.
There is alot of day ahead and full of surprises.
Hope to get news from you.

Thank H♥

and yar, last long hid with your boyfriend. :)

HER WORDS.
H: aie , i know youre sick of everything thats happening to you . But dont because of people you ruin yrself, and you ruin yr life . Maybe you havent found the right person yet . Maybe its not time for you to really love someone. You just have yet to meet the person who will show you real love . People change, so does love . But being single in the mid-time isnt that bad either bcs yknow....

H: listen here. If you keep doing that, you will be more desperate to be into a relationship . Then when you have relationship, you will feel conquered and all. Cm'mon aie, i know youre not this kind of person right ?

H: wheres the old aie i used to know ? Who doesnt smoke / drink or do any bad stuffs ?

H: cm'mon , dont dissapoint me aie. I hate it when i hear my friends changing into someone who i dont recognise anymore.

H: Like strts smoking / drinking or clubbing when they used to not to do all these kind of stuffs .

H: Love cant really change you, aie .

home club

2009-12-27T03:06:00.000-08:00

i dont know what to say uh.
yesterday.
woke up at 3.
siap and went to town.
met parker, fahfa.
saw fiq, fiqqo, ielah, azzah and fir.
salam them and went to marina gallery.
split up with the 5 of them.
i dont know uh why ehk.
our friendship is spliting up.
blah3. went to alcova.
boring. the good thing we didnt went in.
we went to home club.
its for 18 and above and im 17.
then went to town, met ema and shefa.
walk and talk.
then went back to home club and i just went in.
saw alot of friends.
and its free flow of liquor and stupid beer.
2 cups of liquor(smirnoff and red vodka) and a shot of red vodka.
dance to the stupid remix.
blah3. watching some friends dance with girls.
good for them then.
im just chilling around. then fahfa went home.
me and parker wait for the first bus and went home.

2009-12-24T20:59:00.000-08:00

i found this stupid photo in my vampirefreak.

i look like a scum.

fuck the hair sia.

with the band T. piercings, earphone.

its been 3 years going gig and stuff.

but now?

Party, Club, House party and Chalet.

im addicted to electro, house, 2k9, 2k10, blah3.

i think im going for the countdown beach party.

wooooo. have fun guys and girls. *d=.=b*

Home

2009-12-24T20:43:00.000-08:00

Awake from loud music at zeek house.
went to wash hair and smoke.
then went to admiralty, bought food for family.
finally im home after two days at zeek out.
bath and eat.
took lappy from sis and blog.
blog is the only place knows me. :D

NKI

2009-12-24T12:36:00.000-08:00

People were asking you out and stuff.
i know its difficult to get over him.
when you were lonely, i messaged.
trying to entertain you.
but you, trying to avoid me.
you wanted to be lonely,
you can just reply and say i wanted to be lonely for awhile.
and i will respect your decision.
at first you said you wanted to contact me.
trying to change me.
i made an effort to ask how are you.
you didnt reply. hais.
i just wanted to meet you.
seeing you happy.
i dont know uh. im just fucked up with life.
i know im no one to you.
but i tried my best to entertain you.
im sorry yaw.

thon.

2009-12-24T12:30:00.000-08:00

its been two days i have not been home.
thinking of something, someone.
at first i was angry with my step dad.
he is angry because of rose syrup spill in the fridge.
and i heard he said he wanted to punch my sis.
second thing, friends being sucks.
since they saw her, they tried thier best to asked her out.
i dont know, im just pissed.
im just to stressed up.

suziiee

2009-12-21T09:29:00.000-08:00

i miss you nurha.

i know im in fault.

i have to bear your sadness.

the last day we talk was at vivo, watching the fireworks.

hugging in the train. a peck.

you said you just wanna be friends.

i just have to respect to decision then.

i know i went out with girls and stuff.

i dont know where im going, what to do and why am i doing all this.

when we were contacting im not lost. i went to school happily.

not im the only one happy. my teacher and friends were happy too.

thanks to you, if not im not going school and quit already.

thanks nurha.<3

today

2009-12-21T07:18:00.000-08:00

Today, stayed home.
nothing to do, suppose to fetch az'mira but ezlink low.
Hais. hmm. watch movies. PS3. Online.
smoke smoke and smoke.
ok done.

2010

2009-12-19T12:09:00.000-08:00

Hey, its been so fast to the end of 2009.
time just pass by like that.
we cant bring the past to present.
forget the past, kiss the present.
think about your future.
the choice you made can change everything.

Loves
I broke with my second last ex early this year.
took 7 month to get over her.
During november, i found may.
she is a great girl.
we broke up due to something.
wasnt my fault.
i want a girlfriend.

Changes.
then life's a beach. started from there i change.
from going gigs and stuff, i went to party, club, house party.
started to drink and smoke.
having sex with any girl.
i have becoming worst.
its a been a great year.

one thing i hate about this year is the money my dad suppose to gave me.
he should give me the money every month till im 21.
he didnt give a single cent to me.
except for my birthday.

My birthday.
watch movie with tyzz.
then met fir, lepak. take pics.
its unlike 2008, 2 cakes. alots of friends.
i know i made a big mistake.

Friends.
i made alot of friends this year.
me and old friends were not in good terms.
so yeah, i want a new groups of friends.
a friends who dont forget each other and who dont talk behide my backs.
a fun, caring and understandable friends.

Death.
my grandmother past away around june.
i know she is watching me.
all the sins and stupid stuff i do.
thank nek for taking care of me for 12 years.
i love you.

Hari Raya.
First day im at johor with dad and step mum.
then went to singapore and raya.
each year, its getting boring.
even though i get 200+. its still not enough.
most of the money wasted on LAN.

Ema is the first one to read this, i knew it.

morning, rise and shine dear notebook.

2009-12-02T18:44:00.000-08:00

our first pic.

aieisboredwithlife.tumblr.com

i wake up with the sound of my family voice running through my ear.
i must learn to be independant.
i just cant be with someone everyday and irritate them.

the wind blow for us, the sun rise and set for us, the skys stay blue for us, the gravity put us together, our love stays around
HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY NOORSAHIDA.

my sassy girl

2009-12-01T23:32:00.000-08:00

i watched my sassy girl from just now.
its a sad story. its about a love story.
a korean couple which have fate with each another.
wanna know more?
watch it on youtube. lol.

hmm. i learn alot from that movie.
fate: its building a bridge of chance for your love

lovelife.

2009-11-29T00:32:00.000-08:00

I realised that we are too young to be in relationship.
most of the girl of this century are fucked up.
they bastard boys. hurt boys feeling.
i have been lately think of this.
i know its no use thinking of it.
all this stuck in my mind right now since the incident.
but why is it easy for them to fall in love?
and why dont they realised that some guys are still loving them?
and now, im confused about something else.
no one knows about it.
i prefer being single and i hate being lonely.
i need to keep myself busy by meeting anyone everyday.
at least meet for 1 hour also i dont mind.

house party can make me happy if someone ou tthere with me all the way.
:D
for some girls out there, fuck you.

fir birthday

2009-11-29T00:26:00.001-08:00

meet zuzu under my block.
crying try to calm her down.
then went to city hall.
i know she is going to be skating.
so then meet af, fir, golly, faris, shee, shahfiq, suziiee, azura and more la.
then celebrate fir birthday.
alot of donuts and a big bear for him.
sorry fir if i took alot of cigg from you.
i just need cigg.(now)
then meet sherini, rym and their friend.
took my mp4 back.
thats all i need.
then talk2 and stuff.
and idris, i know its dragging you and make you you think more.
we live once in this world not to be sad ok.
then went home.

thon

2009-11-27T16:13:00.000-08:00

its been two day i thonned at gombak.
hmm. everybody is sleeping except me.
met sherini last night at her cousin house.
talk2. mp4 was with her.
her dad talk stuff with me.
then went off to gombak and met parker, salisha, shahfiq and salisha fren.
i busy talking otp with sherini.
then went to jimmy house.
watch i am legend and msging sampai tertido.
then wake up and smoke.
active terus sia. walk to zeek house and thon there.
otp with her again.
me and shahfiq main dota.
tu 2 da tidur. da la. good bye then

life is currently fun.

2009-11-26T10:38:00.001-08:00

SINGLE = FUCKABLE.
lol. break up with that liar.
im just angry.
most of my friends prefer me single rather than be in a DRAMA.
pfft. im tired with life.
someone psycho me to go school.
=D. its been 3 days i went to school. mcm happy gitu kn.
last long with him ah. i dont mind.
cause theres millions of girls better than you.
blah3. ok bye.

listen to my new song dear.

bby buncit

2009-11-02T08:03:00.000-08:00

life is different now.
since last week i have been meeting my bby.
the more i meet the more happy and loving you.
yesterday was the day we were together, under the full moon.
i was so shy to ask it. but i did it. horray to me.
i have never been this happy.
seriously. i have no regret loving you bby.
the is no negative thinking in my mind when im with you.
hmm. all i can say is, i love you n********* <3

ily maymay

2009-10-31T10:29:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU BBY BUNCIT!

wah.

2009-10-20T23:47:00.001-07:00

wah, rindu nk togok ah. haha. cant wait for chalet. =D

KIMAK!

2009-10-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

EHK PUKI PEH BUDAK! SKRANG ASL KAU TKOT NK JUMPE AKU? ASL TUKAR TOPIC BILE AKU AJAK JUMPE? KLAU APE2 TERJADI KT PMPN TU. JAGE SIAL HIDUP KAU! AKU TKKN LPAS KN KAU! KAU DASAR CHOL KES TJDE BUAH NK ONE ON ONE NGAN AKU! KAU TK DPT DIE KIREKN SLAH AKU PE BOY? KAU DASAR PERANGAI BOY AH! DASAR PENAKOT!

=/

2009-10-16T22:32:00.000-07:00

You thought me back how to love, be faithful and care.
but now, people are hating us. idk why.
im confuse and still loving you.
why is it so difficult to see me happy?
should my life will always is devastating way?
swarming my life with hatred.
spam all you guys want.
im just fine with people with this attitude.
i need to be alone for the time being.
im not going malaysia due to all this.
i will top up tomorrow.
i shall see who will msg me.
SY.♥

:].

2009-10-13T09:23:00.000-07:00

Nathaniel MacMelancholy
Prothero.

these memories will be with me bby.
i love you bby <3.

thanks bby, tonight will be the night.

2009-10-13T09:13:00.000-07:00

Close your eyes and say good night
and hold me till the morning light
when the sun comes shinning through
I'll kiss you
one last time
and I'll begin to live my life without you
wish that I could make you stay
but I know I have no power to persuade
the heart will do what it must do
So kiss me
one last time
and tell me how to live my life without you
Cause I love you without and ending
cause I need you to be my everything
tell me the meaning of a life without you with me
when the night falls I'll still be standing
cause you'll always be right here in my heart
and in my deepest memories
I will never have to be without you
love is like a work of art
once you feel it you hold it in your heart
you know forever that its true use I need

a day worth a millions word.

2009-10-13T03:01:00.000-07:00

Today met someone. yeah.
this is a day worth a millions word.
im very comfortable with you.
seriously.
i promise myself many things dear.
althought you didnt say anything.
the only thing witness the thing between us will be that place.
these things we exchange will let me hear you out.
chutchut and bekbek.
lol. hugs.
SY=D

2009-10-12T10:21:00.000-07:00

ok. im fine with her. happy as normal.
=D
and saving those relationship problems. =.=''

2009-10-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

wah! i wasn't suppose to be in Dhoby, seriously.
but at last i saw you and you saw me.
good luck for operation.
:(.
only you understand what im trying to say.

2009-10-11T10:09:00.000-07:00

I seriously am not dead just because of history repeats itself.

hmm.

2009-10-07T21:34:00.000-07:00

Im online just to chat with you
but you didnt online.
a space for me?
haiya.
nevermind.
im addicted to ELECTRO.
waiting for warcraft 3 Frozen Of Throne to finish download.
lol.

morning wake

2009-10-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

Eventually awake and its raining cats and dogs.
its cold in here.
meeting gogogolly later if the rains stops.
good luck for your exams.
wahh im bored down here.
someone please just online and entertain me please.
vavava vavava.

drunkfest

2009-10-03T09:16:00.000-07:00

Went to Drunkfest with parker, shahfiq, shabby, aleppo, ajie, adie, lufee and more.
It was bored at first.
DJ arrived and it began. drink drank drunk.
most of us mabok rabak and vomited.
WASTED.
enjoy myself though.
police came twice and we had to hide amonst those bushes.
fast forward and aleppo jatuh dalam longkang.
and yar. my handphone is with azri azmi.
DRUNKFEST 2?

chat ngan budak belo yang menghilangkan diri

2009-09-29T00:25:00.000-07:00

Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
aie
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
aie
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
aie baby
I say:
ape la
I say:
nk konek?
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
alala manja nya
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
LOL
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
HAHHAHAHAHAH
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
taknak
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
aku nak girl
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
ok la
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
pape tekan aku ok?
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
takmo la marah aie baby
I say:
pgi cari ah pmpn
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
bastard
I say:
aku tekan kau rabak2 nnt
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
kau mana nak lyn aku lagi mcm dulu
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
tak habis2 bbl merepek
I say:
lol
I say:
da mature ah
I say:
maaf ah
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
kons uh
I say:
ok
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
aku mls nak lyn org2 kons mcm kau
I say:
ok
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
okok
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
sorry
I say:
ok
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
babi
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
mls nak lyn aku
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
da uh
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
:'(
I say:
nangis ah kau
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
sedih pe
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
ok
Akir Jepun Wants : Take Prac Motor Shopping says:
thanks
I say:
aku ade bnyk kerje nk buat selain pujuk kau

2009-09-28T23:25:00.000-07:00

It's been almost 8 hour chatting with this buncit.

i know idk how many months i know her.

share stories and stuff.

im hungry and in the library.

chat chat chat and dadadadadada dada dada let's go from just now.

haha.

addicted to a day to remember - the downfall of us all.

gahh. swing your arms bby.

im bored so i watch this.

2009-09-16T02:23:00.000-07:00

Birthday

2009-09-15T23:18:00.000-07:00

Firstly, i wanna say happy birthday to aie, azzah, ayuni, amoy, cika, bbyface, rina, fazli, shabby amira and those who born on september.
yesterday went out to LAN shop with Fir, Aly, Sham, May, Bbyface and Yuyul.
then walk to Lido, jauh sia. belo peh fir.
makan then jalan2 di ION. lepak. then went home.

lazy to type.

why?

2009-08-23T02:42:00.000-07:00

Boring. not fasting. burning from hell.
i dont know what wrong with all those people or it is me?
suddenly i feel like taking weed.
im turning bad. i know but why people are acting strangely.
hais. life is great with up and down.
its just a game.
i dont know why im waiting for A and she just gone like that.
nevermind. life is cruel. im contacting someone this few days.
yeah. weed. bye.

hello good morning.

2009-08-21T23:46:00.000-07:00

New picture uploaded.

Back. sorry my faithful reader.

Been busy this whole week with something, someone, somewhere and somehow.

Yeah. fasting.
Feeling hungry but i can make it. =D.

like normal.

2009-08-13T03:09:00.000-07:00

im lost.
help?

yeah man(Y)

2009-08-12T02:04:00.000-07:00

have been thinking of what to thinking. currently at shee house.
she is siaping for lady gaga concert.
me? i download CS wall hack. pfft.
bosan tau tak. hais.
blah3. hungry. nothing to do. going home soon.

facebook

2009-08-06T00:14:00.000-07:00

facebook was the only thing keeping me busy.
i took quizzes and play game and cooment2 people.
great though.
thanks to facebook and the people out there for keeping me busy.=]
<3
but still im here for somone out there.
im having dejavu right now. pfft.

keep me busy please

2009-08-05T05:28:00.000-07:00

library was my only place to go.
monday fico.
maybe sunday will be hanging out with suraya.
hmm. saturday minum kopi pedas.
friday beli gula-gula.
thursday sekolah. blah3
im bored with life. keep me busy please. anyone.
chat with suraya, naddy, aly, akir, sob, anna. blah3.

esai esai esai

2009-08-05T00:50:00.000-07:00

in a library alone as usual.
facebook, blog as usual.
rotting as usual.
sad as usual.
why cant i have something new?
why cant i be happy?
someone please come.

life's great.

blah3 :(

2009-08-02T19:19:00.000-07:00

Love is an option i have to make.
Falling in love is im afraid of.
Im sorry if i have to cause my heart makes the decision.
I guess i have to make a move to change your mind up.
Prepaid running low. I cant message you. Sorry.
Im not in school due to something in my mind. :/
Every colour has it meanings.
Crying have meanings too?
Im sorry Norsakina bte masri.

imy tiger.

2009-08-01T05:46:00.000-07:00

Didnt went out today.
Only god and i know whats happening to me.
im missing you tiger, roar!
hmm. im will wait for the photo. enjoy yourself.

photo

2009-08-01T02:04:00.000-07:00

090809 will look like this bby.

somewhere at the beach~

2009-08-01T01:29:00.000-07:00

Met kinna yesterday at parkway parade.
I had a fun time with her.
Thanks for the bite mark at both of my shoulder and the scratches at my hand, tiger.
Talk alot of stuff and kutuk-ing people.
As the moon rise, we acted differently. you dont want to know.
I was late for the last bus. Sent her to busstop and goodbye.
Walk to my granny house at Eunos.
There was no one there. Walk around, wasting my time and sleep under granny block.
Woke up and took the first bus home.

Kinna'ie

life.

2009-07-29T04:25:00.000-07:00

My life has been in a such disastery way.
its difficult to find someone who really cares and love you.
i have lack of all that. i needed someone out there to be with me.
my friends is always busy and stuff.
how about me?
rot at home?
crying at night?
searching for someone like a child searching for its parents?
7 months of suffering from loneliness.
5 months wasted on waiting for my ex.
2 month searching and 4 girls bastard me.
woah. the world is upside down.
girl bastard boys?
hmm. ok.

i have someone in my mind already. im waiting for the right time NDP girl.

Alone

2009-07-29T02:08:00.000-07:00

kind of feeling alone right now.
i hate it when my prepaid is low.
cant msg, cant on the phone.
always go the feeling of meeting someone cause im rotting at home.
how i wish there is someone living near my area.
hais. nevermind. you wont understand my situation.

lost.